From: Marni Centor <mccb@idt.net>

Sorry for missing the last two weeks. I had some trouble with my VCR and
didn't get the episodes on tape.

            GUIDING LIGHT UPDATE: THURSDAY, OCTOBER 1, 1998

HIGHLIGHTS:

* Cassie & Vanessa worry as Dinah seems to be giving up on life.
* Ken denies he's the stalker. Ross & Ben look elsewhere for Blake.
* Holly defends Ken & convinces Rick to let her stay out of Cedars.
* Blake & Hart try to figure out the right thing to do.
* Michelle announces that she's moving in with Jesse.
* Drew almost fires Mick for having drugs in her club.

CEDARS: Dinah struggles to reach Vanessa's bottle of pills so she can
lower her blood pressure some more. Cassie enters the room & asks what
Dinah's doing. Dinah asks for help.

HOLLY'S COTTAGE: Ken denies that he is the Nursery Rhyme Stalker. Ben &
Ross are both suspicious of him. Ken claims that he doesn't even know
Harley & Cassie, and he doesn't think Blake is a bad mother, just that
she hasn't been such a great mother lately. But Holly wasn't either, so
it's not a big deal. Holly asks Ken if he knows where Blake and the boys
are. She's terrified that something has happened to them.

UNIDENTIFIED LOCATION: The twins play contentedly while a tape player
plays "A Tisket, A Tasket."

HOLLYBEND: Ken says he would never hurt Blake or Holly. Ben points out
that Ken has a bottle of the herbicide that was used to poison Harley.
Ken says he uses it to make his plants grow. Ben wants to call the
police. Holly tells him to stop torturing Ken. Ben thinks that Ken is
criminally insane & they're lucky he hasn't started eating people. Ken
insists that he's normal & wouldn't hurt anyone except maybe Ben, since
he tried to make Blake run away in the first place. Ben vows to kill Ken
if he has hurt Blake or the boys.

CEDARS: Cassie rushes to Dinah's side to see if she's OK. Dinah lays
back in bed & says she's dizzy, meanwhile thinking to herself that her
performance must be really good. Cassie asks why Dinah was trying to get
out of bed. Dinah mumbles that she wanted her clothes so she could
leave. Cassie says Dinah is really sick. Dinah says she hates the
hospital. If she doesn't have much time left, she wants to die at home.
Cassie says Dinah isn't going to die. Dinah says she's lost everything
she ever wanted, and without Hart she has no reason to fight. Cassie
knows that Dinah's not a quitter. Dinah knows she's lost & she can't
live with it. Hart will never love her again because of who she is.
Cassie tells Dinah that she's strong & doesn't need Hart. Dinah says
he's the only man she ever loved. Hart needs Cassie now. She'll give him
the child he deserves. Dinah appears to pass out & Cassie calls for a
nurse and tries to get Dinah to wake up. Vanessa enters, shocked at
Dinah's condition.

DREW'S CLUB: Jesse arrives, looking snazzy in a gray suit, black shirt &
tie. Drew thinks he looks great, but Jesse hates the "monkey suit." Drew
thinks more people will come to the club if Jesse looks good. She tries
to explain the difference between a cool club and a plain old bar. Jesse
doesn't get it, having no basis for comparison. Drew says beautiful
people will be having a wonderful time and Jesse will be "the man" --
the face of Millennium. Michelle enters and adds cheerfully that it will
only be until Jesse has earned enough money to pay for his new
apartment. Drew didn't know they were moving in together. Michelle is
pleased to throw this wrench in Drew's plans & Jesse smiles at the
thought of living with Michelle.

CEDARS: Vanessa pushes Cassie away from the bed & sends her to find Dr.
Sedwick. She talks to Dinah, who says she wants to go home. She doesn't
want to die in the hospital. Dr. Sedwick returns & checks on Dinah.
Dinah thinks that she has to get another pill so she will be really sick
when Hart shows up. Dr. Sedwick says Dinah is a little better than she
was earlier, but if her blood pressure stays this low, there could be
serious complications. She & Vanessa go outside to discuss Dinah's
condition further. Dinah asks Cassie to leave so she can get some sleep.
After Cassie's gone, Dinah slowly pulls herself toward the drawer
containing Vanessa's pills and takes two. She then hides the bottle
under her mattress. She's sure that if Hart thinks she's dying, he'll
come back.

HOLLYBEND: Ben asks how Holly feels about living with a crazy criminal.
Ross asks if she's sure Ken is innocent. Holly insists that Ken was with
her the whole day that Harley received the poisoned fruit. Ben thinks
Ken could have slipped out while Holly was drinking. And where was Ken
during the other incidents? Holly says Ken has no reason to do such
things. He didn't know anything about Harley's baby, or that it was
Meg's first day of school. Ken says he would never send dead flowers; he
takes very good care of his plants.

There's some insistent knocking on the door, so Holly answers. Rick &
Dr. Bradford stride in. Dr. Bradford says Holly should not have left the
hospital. Rick says Holly has left them no choice. They are having her
committed to Cedars for 72 hours observation.

SPRINGFIELD INN: Blake thanks Hart for letting her come there with the
boys and helping her take care of them. She's worried about how confused
the boys must be, first being taken from their mother, and then from
their father. Hart didn't think Blake meant to take the boys away from
Ross; he thought she just need to get away from Ben. Blake wrings her
hands & admits that she needs to take them away from Ross too. Hart
reminds her that she said they were only going to stay away until she
thought it was safe to go home. Blake doesn't think it will ever be safe
again. Hart asks if she's planning to leave Springfield. Blake says she
has no choice; if she doesn't go, she'll lose her kids. She plans to
leave for California tonight, before anyone can find her.

MILLENNIUM: Jesse really likes the idea of moving in with Michelle.
Drew's not interested. Jesse suggests that Michelle tell Drew all about
the apartment. Michelle raves about the place & their plans for it.
Jesse says he's been dreaming about this moment for a long time & it's
thanks to Drew that he can afford to do it. Mick shows up & asks Jesse
for help with the sound system.

Drew tells Michelle that she must be paying Jesse too much. Or maybe he
sold some more paintings, she suggests sarcastically. Michelle is
unperturbed. She knows the truth. But soon Jesse will sell some of his
art & be out from owing Drew. She's secure in Jesse's love & nothing
Drew can do will change that. "We'll see," comments Drew.

HOLLYBEND: Rick explains to Ross how Holly sneaked out of the hospital.
Holly's only concern is finding Blake. Ross fills Rick in on what they
know so far. Dr. Bradford is adamant that Holly return to the hospital.
Holly says she's already lost one daughter & she doesn't intend to lose
the other.

SPRINGFIELD INN: Blake says she plans to spend some time with Roger &
Amanda. Roger will make sure that Ross doesn't find her. Hart thought
Roger & Amanda were still in Europe. Blake says if she asks him to come
home, he will. Hart wonders if Blake really wants to get Roger involved.
She says she has no choice. Hart warns that if she takes the boys out of
town, she may lose Ross forever. She thinks that's already happened.
Hart asks if she really wants to take the boys away from their dad.
Blake thinks she can give them a wonderful life away from all the chaos
she has caused. Hart asks if she's doing what's best for her or the
boys. He knows what it's like to want to run away from problems, but
problems tend to follow you.

Blake asks about Dinah. Hart says she lost the baby & seems so fragile
now. He didn't trust her throughout the pregnancy & now he feels like he
needs to make it up to her somehow. Blake wonders why neither of them
can seem to stay happy. Of course, she knows her problems are her own
fault; she admits that she wanted Ben bad enough to risk everything.
Hart asks if she's ever thought about why she did it. She had been so
content with Ross & the twins. He doesn't think her attraction to Ben is
a physical thing. He thinks she's really in love with Ben. Blake wonders
if maybe she is.

Hart asks if Blake has thought about what kind of life she could have
with Ben. Blake says she always thought she would grow old with Ross &
raise their sons. Now when she thinks about the future, she just sees
blackness, nothing. She thinks she's incapable of having an honest
relationship. Hart says Blake is afraid to let herself be happy. Blake
wonders if that's inherited. Hart says maybe it is. He thinks he could
be happy with Cassie, but he can't run away with her because of Dinah.
Blake says Hart can't ruin his happiness with guilt. He has to forgive
himself & move on. Hart says Blake could move on without moving out of
town. Blake thinks maybe Hart is right. Hart gives her a kiss & says he
wants his big sister to stick around. He wants to go check on Dinah &
Cassie, but he doesn't want to leave Blake alone. She says he can drop
her & the boys off. She thinks she knows where she needs to be.

HOLLYBEND: Dr. Bradford asks Ross if Holly has been acting erratic since
she's been out of the hospital. Ross says Holly has been behaving like
someone who has recently suffered a great loss & is trying to keep her
family safe. Holly thanks Ross for his support. Holly promises Dr.
Bradford that she will come for appointments if she can stay out of the
hospital to look for her daughter. Rick thinks it's important for Holly
to find Blake & the boys too. Dr. Bradford agrees & asks Holly to call
if she feels like she's losing control. She & Rick leave.

Ross thinks it's time to go, but Ben says "Uncle Nutso" still hasn't
told them where Blake is. Ross believes that Ken doesn't know anything.
Holly suggests that Blake is home by now. Ben says she could be at his
place too. They leave to find out.

Ken asks Holly why she lied about being with him the day Harley was
poisoned. Holly couldn't let Ben railroad Ken. They're family. Ken says
he didn't poison Harley & he doesn't know where Blake is. Holly believes
him. Ken says Ben is a very bad man. He's hurt everyone Ken loves. He
promises to protect Holly & never let her be hurt again. He goes out for
a walk to clear his head. Holly prays for Blake to come home soon.

CEDARS: Dr. Sedwick tells Vanessa that she doesn't know what Dinah's
problem is. They will run more tests, but Dinah seems to have lost her
will to get better. Vanessa says Dinah seemed OK & in good spirits
earlier. Dr. Sedwick says that might have been because she had all her
family around her. It can make a big difference. Vanessa asks Cassie to
find Hart & Ross & Bill & bring them all to the hospital. Dr. Sedwick
urges Vanessa to talk to Dinah & tell her how much everyone wants her to
get better.

Vanessa goes to Dinah's bedside & says Hart will be there soon. Dinah
says she's afraid that Hart won't make it in time.

Vanessa urges Dinah to get better. She tells Dinah about how she was
ready to let go when she was really sick. She describes her "out of body
experience" while she was in her coma. She saw what would happen to her
family if she died & it was very frightening, especially what happened
to Dinah. That's when she realized that Dinah really needed her, despite
all the grief Dinah had caused her. And she realized that she really
needed Dinah too. All the years she spent without Dinah, she felt like
part of her was missing. When she found Dinah, she felt so much joy, and
that she couldn't survive if she lost Dinah again. Dinah might feel like
she's lost everything, but Vanessa is there & loves her very much. "I'm
not going to let you go," she vows, stroking Dinah's face. Dinah says
she loves Vanessa too.

MILLENNIUM: Drew finds it very interesting that Jesse just learned that
Michelle was moving in with him. Michelle says they had planned it, and
she refuses to be threatened by Drew. Drew wonders what would happen if
she invited Jesse on a business trip. Would Michelle propose to him?
"Someday," replies Michelle confidently, as she turns to leave. She
congratulates Drew on her new club. "Geranium?" Drew corrects her.
Michelle heads for the door & runs into Mick. He comes on to her, but
she seems scared & doesn't want anything to do with him. She warns him
to stay away from her. Jesse returns & takes Michelle aside & asks where
she's been. She says she was at the hospital & got into an argument with
Rick. Jesse asks if she was serious about moving in with him. In answer,
he kisses him. 

Mick laughs. "I think he's almost yours," he says to Drew sarcastically.
She tells him to get away from her. Mick says Drew is too good for
Jesse. He has something that will make her feel better. Drew says Mick
makes her sick. Mick says he didn't mean she should sleep with him,
although that would work too. He pulls a little packet of white powder
out of his shirt pocket & offers it to her. She grabs it from him & gets
angry that he would bring drugs into her club. She says he's disgusting
& fires him on the spot.

Mick says she can't fire her. Drew offers to call the cops. She says she
never does drugs & won't have them in her club. Mick says now that he
understands, it will never happen again. Drew doesn't care; she still
wants him out. Mick threatens to spill the beans to Jesse & Michelle
about Drew's scheming, so she agrees to keep him on, but insists that he
must never bring drugs to her club again.

Jesse tells Michelle that he was planning to invite her to dinner & ask
her to stay over. When they woke up together, he was going to ask her to
move in. Michelle is sorry she ruined his plans, but Jesse says the end
is the same anyway. He asks if her family is ready for this. She thinks
they'll give her a hard time, but she doesn't care. They kiss. Drew
watches angrily.

CEDARS: Dinah says she has waited so long to hear how much Vanessa loved
her. When she was little, she used to dream about it. Vanessa knows she
should have said it more often instead of giving out so much unwanted
advice. Dinah figures she deserved it. Vanessa wants a happy life for
Dinah, with a wonderful man. Dinah knows she hasn't been a very good
daughter. Van says she hasn't been a great mother, so they're well
matched. 

Hart quietly opens the door. Dinah sees him, but doesn't acknowledge
him. Instead she tells Vanessa that she's ready to leave the world in
peace now.

MARLER HOUSE: Ross enters his darkened house & finds Blake sitting in
the living room.

BEN'S SUITE: Ben enters & pours himself a drink. There's a knock at the
door & he opens it to find a bottle of liquor & a note that says, "Relax
& enjoy. I'll be there soon." He goes back inside as someone watches and
then approaches the door. "A Tisket, A Tasket," plays eerily in the
background after Ben closes the door. Close-up on the doorknob as the
screen fades to black.

