From: Marni Centor <marni@panix.com>


GUIDING LIGHT TGIF UPDATE -- FRIDAY, JUNE 2, 1995

HIGHLIGHTS
* Annie & Josh come to an understanding.
* Dinah makes a new career move in her life of crime.
* Van tries to understand parent/child relationships.
* Holly tells Rog how she really feels & Fletcher overhears.

Late at night in Springfield, USA...

CEDARS: An angry, frustrated Annie fights with her clothing as she 
attempts to undress. She is startled by "Rebecca" (Reva), who appears at 
the door. R is "surprised" to see Annie, since Annie had a date with 
Josh. "No, there's no date," says Annie. "There's just something that 
looks very much like two people breaking up." Reva smirks.

OUTSIDE COMPANY: Viktor manhandles Dinah, who doesn't want to kidnap 
Peter. He reminds her that she owes him a lot of $$ & says it's a benign 
crime -- no one gets hurt. He appeals to her sense of justice -- it's a 
redistribution of wealth. Dinah says she can't do this to her family, to 
her mother. "No? Then why did you bring Matt's father to town?"

MATT'S ROOM: Matt & Van roll around on his bed & cuddle. Van asks if Matt 
is still thinking about his dad. "No," he replies, and resumes kissing 
her, as if to prove it.

REVA BEND (HOLLY'S COTTAGE): Fletch stands outside the door (still 
smudged with Roger's blood -- you think someone would have cleaned that 
up!) & wonders what he's doing. He leaves without knocking.

Inside, (real) Roger caresses the sleeping Holly, who reponds. He mumbles 
sweet nothings to her. She turns to kiss him, then pulls back with a 
start. "Roger! What are you doing here?"

Holly calms down & tells Rog he should be in bed. "I am in bed," he 
points out. But not this bed --he's not supposed to move around yet. Rog 
says he's feeling much better & he couldn't sleep. He starts pouring on 
the amnesia BS -- he gets so happy when he thinks about their upcoming 
wedding & how happy they'll be. Holly wants to call the doctor. Rog begs 
her to let him stay: "I want to sleep with you tonight." Not that he's 
ready to do the wild thing just yet, he clarifies, but he'd like to 
cuddle. Holly says it's out of the question.

She offers to let Rog stay in her bed & she'll go to the other room. She 
says good night & Rog thanks her for putting up with him. As she turns to 
go, Rog appears overcome by a wave of dizziness. It has just "come" to 
him that he hasn't been in Holly's bed for many moons. Holly says they'll 
talk in the AM. Rog gets another "flash." The images don't make any 
sense. He remembers people in costume & Fletcher "spouting." He remembers 
the auction, dimly. Holly confirms that this occurred. Rog "remembers" 
about Fletcher. "It's true? It's over? You don't love me anymore."

JOURNAL: Fletch sits at Holly's desk & gets ready to pour himself a shot 
of bourbon. He backs off, deciding he will not do this. Tangie enters & 
asks about the file he's holding. She gathers that Fletch isn't dealing 
well with the whole injured-Rog situation. Fletch says he's getting by. 
He decided to let Rog get one more night of rest before swooping down on 
his fantasy world. Fletch got some info from the cops, which he offers to 
share on the condition that Tangie keep it to herself. The report shows 
that the accident was a hoax. "Roger Thorpe faked the whole damn thing!"

MATT'S ROOM: Van can tell Matt's not in a good mood. She urges him to 
open up & offers to rub his back. This he happily accepts. Van suggests 
that sometimes we hold our families to a higher standard than we hold our 
friends & don't forgive them for things we should. Matt wonders if she's 
talking about him & Sean or her & Dinah. Van says both. She sometimes 
feels that the ugly things she sees in Dinah reflect badly on her. Is 
Matt afraid that he'll turn out like his dad? "No, I'm not like him," 
Matt says. Van wonders where all Dinah's cruelty came from. Matt says Van 
can't blame herself for that. He just wants them to have their own 
family. Van agrees. She wants to assure Matt that his family isn't the 
only messy one. "The Chamberlain clan is no G-rated family 
entertainment." What are *we* rated? Matt asks with a grin?

OUTSIDE COMPANY: Dinah tries to steer Viktor in another direction. "Pound 
for pound, your best catch for ransom is Matt." Viktor doesn't want to 
get mixed up with a martial arts expert. He insists on taking the baby, 
with Dinah's help. It'll be easy -- all they need is some candy & a toy. 
And with Dinah caring for him, Peter will just think it's a game. "What 
if I refuse?" asks Dinah. "Then I'll take the baby myself," threatens 
Viktor menacingly. "Do you really want me to go into that house with a 
gun?" Dinah gulps. Is a gun really necessary? Not for her, he says. She 
has a key. "That's the beauty of an inside job." If I do this, asks 
Dinah, will Viktor promise to cancel the debt & go away? He promises, for 
what it's worth. "I don't like you any more than you like me," he adds.

JOURNAL: Tangie says the police report doesn't mean a thing. Only an 
engineer could tell whether the accident was rigged. Fletch trusts his 
instincts, but Tangie doesn't. "You're biased. You're a lover with an ax 
to grind." She says the report is inconclusive. Fletch says Rog fixed the 
driver-side locks so he could get out of the car before it went into the 
ravine. Tangie doesn't see what this gets Rog -- he could have died. He's 
hurt himself, not Holly. Fletch thinks it's a ploy to get back in Holly's 
life. How convenient that he showed up on her doorstep & refuses to 
leave. Tangie thinks it doesn't mean a thing. "A little tea & sympathy, 
she kicks his butt out the door & you & Holly live happily ever after. 
How does he win?" Fletch says Rog is getting the one thing he couldn't 
get any other way: time with Holly, time to try to win her back.

REVA BEND: Now that he ostensibly has his memory back, Rog starts beating 
up on himself for intruding on Holly when she had made it clear that she 
didn't want him in her life anymore. Holly, of course, tries to calm him 
down. She says that Fletch understands that Rog is only staying until he 
gets better. Rog thinks that's very generous, but feels embarrassed. "You 
must hate me." Holly insists that she doesn't. "Maybe what happened to me 
was worth it," Rog replies with a little laugh. He "remembers" the scene 
with Alex & how Holly thought they slept together. "I know that you 
didn't," assures Holly. "But you found out too late," replies Rog. "Maybe 
I should have died. I lost the 1 person I care more about than anybody 
else in this world. Now this is too painful to bear. Now I've got to lose 
you all over again," he whines.

CEDARS: Reva asks if Annie wants to talk about her break-up. "Real love 
is hard to hold onto. I'm talking from personal experience." Annie didn't 
know R had a boyfriend. Reva says he's real stubborn & won't listen to 
anything he doesn't want to hear. "He just blows up -- boom!" Annie looks 
worried & asks if the guy has a bad temper. R says no, he's just moody. 
Annie relaxes. Reva goes on... blah, blah, blah. Annie apologizes for 
being wrapped up in her own stuff. Reva offers her ear again. "Josh & I 
had a huge fight," Annie confesses. 

She says they've argued before, but tonight was different & she doesn't 
think they can get past it. He still has feelings for his wife & she's 
been dead for 5 years. Reva acts very understanding. Annie thinks it's 
time for Josh to get over it, but he won't or can't. When she suggested 
counseling, he hit the roof. Annie wishes Rebecca knew Josh. She starts 
enumerating his wonderful qualities & Reva just smiles that sneaky, side-
ways smile. Annie's afraid that his attachment to Reva is going to break 
them up. "I think if it were meant to be, it would just happen," offers 
Rebecca. "You can't hold on to something like this. It's better to find 
out now... you don't want to be Number 2 the rest of your life." Reva 
suggests that Annie find herself another guy. Suddenly, Reva jumps up & 
makes an excuse about being late for her first chance to observe in the 
OR. As she hustles out one door, Josh knocks on the other. He needs to 
talk to Annie right now. Reva listens in anxiously.

Annie lets Josh in & he starts apologizing profusely. Annie wants him to 
meet her friend & calls her to come in. Reva comes in, all done up in 
scrubs, mask & hair cover. She rushes through with barely a wave as Annie 
tries to introduce them. "Nice to meet you," says Josh to the exiting 
back. Josh wants to try to straighten things out, but Annie doesn't think 
there's anything to explain. She knows that Josh is completely wrapped up 
in Reva. "I've got it now, Josh. OK?"

MATT'S ROOM: Van puts her gown back on, but says she can stay if Matt 
wants. Matt says it's OK for her to go home. Van tries to tell Matt that 
maybe his dad has changed. "I've changed since I had Dinah." Matt wonders 
why Van is so concerned about his dad. "I'm concerned about you," Van 
replies. She's worried it may hurt them in some way. Matt promises he 
won't let that happen. Van wishes Matt would tell her what it's all 
about. Matt says he doesn't trust Sean & thinks he's up to something. "I 
know who he is; I know what he is. He uses people." Van offers to stay 
again, but Matt says he'll be fine. They kiss good night.

LEWIS HOUSE: Dinah skulks in the hallway, but ducks into a room when she 
hears Henry & Bill approaching. They're plotting to liberate a pie from 
the fridge. "I get the biggest piece," says Bill. "Like hell you do!" 
replies Grandpa. Dinah skulks back into the hall & enters Peter's room. 
She closes the door behind her & looks down at her sleeping brother.

JOURNAL: Tangie likens Fletch to people who sneer at women who date 
married men. They act like the women are evil, when it's the men who are 
cheating on their wives. Why is Roger the evil one in this scenario? 
Doesn't Holly have any control over herself? Is Fletch really worried 
that Rog will succeed? Fletch says no. He's sure of Holly. She left him a 
very touching message on his machine. "Did she try to find you?" Tangie 
asks. Tangie says Holly's problem is indecisiveness. "She sends out 
signals to you *and* Roger." Fletch says women don't know what they want 
& reminds Tangie that she was recently caught between 2 Spauldings. T 
admits it, but says she's changed. Now she knows what she wants, & it's 
one thing at a time. "Alan Spaulding?!" asks Fletch incredulously. Tangie 
says she's giving him a chance, so she's committing to him. "I ask you, 
who is Holly committed to?" Fletch isn't sure, but he wants to find out.

REVA BEND: Ross arrives in response to Holly's summons. Holly was worried 
when Rog started spouting nonsense about not wanting to live. (Blake was 
too exhausted, so he let her sleep.) Rog doesn't want Ross's "phony 
concern." Ross is concerned because Blake is concerned. He asks to talk 
to Holly alone. Out in the hallway, Holly says she didn't know what to do 
when Rog's memory started coming back. Ross wonders what Rog is doing in 
her bed, then decides he doesn't want to know. Holly says it's not what 
it looks like, but would Ross not mention it to Fletch. Ross agrees. Rog 
moans & Ross offers to see to him while Holly makes up the bed in the 
other room & gets some rest. 

Ross offers assistance to Roger. Rog wants to go home. Now. Ross says 
he's too weak & Blake won't forgive him if anything happens to him.

LEWIS HOUSE: Dinah tells Peter not to be afraid & she'll take care of 
him. He'll be home in a few days & his moms will spoil him. Meanwhile, 
they'll have fun & play together & she'll make him laugh. "I'll try," she 
says nervously. She gathers some toys. "Me & you are gonna get real 
close," she promises. "But not too close," she warns. She doesn't want 
him pointing her out to the cops.

Her jealousy starts creeping through her genuine concern for Peter. "I 
can hear you now: `Dinah took me. Dinah is Mommy's real child, but I'm 
the one she loves.' Right? `I'm her pretend baby.' And Uncle Matt is her 
pretend husband, because Mommy likes to play pretend. She likes to 
pretend she's still young." Dinah gets hold of herself & runs her fingers 
through her hair. This is business, she says, as she packs some clothes 
for him. "If Vanessa wants to trade me in for a younger model, that's 
just fine, but she'll have to pay a king's ransom, baby Peter." Dinah 
hears Van's voice in the hall, saying she's going to check on Peter. She 
breaks out in a sweat.

Van enters the room & looks down fondly at her sleeping son. She notices 
that he doesn't have his monkey & walks across the room to get it. We see 
Dinah's face through the window of a large toy castle. Van tucks Peter in 
with his monkey. "Mommy loves you so much." She says sometimes things go 
wrong between mommies and their babies & when children grow up it's very 
hard to fix. Peter sleeps through it all. "Loving somebody doesn't mean 
you're not going to make mistakes. If you don't believe me, you should 
just ask your big sister, Dinah. `Cause when she was your age I failed 
her very badly & even though I love her, I'm not sure that she's ever 
going to be able to forgive me." Van gets a little teary-eyed & Dinah 
looks a little sad, too. Van decides to think happier thoughts. Peter is 
breathing VERY loudly & Van jokes that he's snoring. She says good night.

CEDARS: Josh says it's not about Reva & he can say no to therapy because 
he's been through it already. "I've had my head shrunk by Freudians, 
Jungians, by every tribe in the book, except of course, the Javarro (?) 
tribe, because it's illegal to *actually* shrink heads..." :-) Annie 
doesn't laugh. All the therapy failed. He's still just as screwed up, or 
normal, as ever. "The point is?" asks Annie. Josh says the point is that 
he's here to sign up for therapy because Annie wants it. Annie says he 
has to do it for himself, not for her. Josh says she is very important to 
her, so if he's doing it for her, he's also doing it for himself. 

He begs her to say something. She just shakes her head at him, 
incredulous that he would do this for her. They agree to work on it 
together, no matter what it takes. He asks what she's doing for the rest 
of the night. "I said I'd be on the floor," Annie answers. Josh raises 
his eyebrows & Annie smiles, but he lets the "offer" pass. He asks if 
they could leave for a little while. Annie says she'll check. Outside, 
Reva decides the ER needs Annie. Suddenly, Annie's beeper goes off. She 
apologizes & says she's got to go. Outside, Reva smiles.

REVA BEND: Rog is trying to leave, and Ross is trying to force him back 
to bed. They're making quite a ruckus & Holly comes in to break up the 
fight. She insists that Rog has to stay for the time being & Ross is 
finally able to force him back to bed. Rog has begun bleeding again & 
Holly gets a little frantic. She starts unbuttoning Rog's shirt while 
Ross rummages for bandages & tape. 

"You are really something. Walk right back into my life and pow! 
Everything is larger than life. But that's what it always was like. I 
fell for you when I was a teen-ager & I guess that's what's drawn me to 
you ever since. But it's not love. It's a fine kind of madness, but it's 
not love. I'm not going to make that mistake any more."

Holly is out of bandages so Ross brings towels instead. Holly says it's 
OK -- she's just going to dress the wound & get Rog to the hospital. He 
starts protesting. Ross says he's going home if Holly doesn't need him.

"You really don't love me anymore?" asks Rog. Holly affirms, "I'm 
fascinated by you, I'm drawn to you, you amaze me -- you always will. But 
it's not love. I learned that from Fletcher & it's a very different 
thing." Rog asks with a smile if she's saying that he "captivates" her. 
Yes. The camera pulls back & we see Fletch standing in the doorway, 
unseen by Holly & Rog. How long has he been there?

Holly continues that the reason things are so hard is because she & Rog 
*are* so connected. "Let's just not mistake it for love." What should we 
mistake it for? asks Rog. Holly doesn't know. Rog thinks it's something, 
at least. He kisses her. Then Roger sees Fletch & moans. Holly turns 
around & sees Fletcher leave. She calls after him. Rog tries to stop her 
from going, but Holly gets up to follow Fletch. Rog tries to follow her & 
groans. In the hall, Holly closes her eyes in frustration.

Holly rushes outside, calling after Fletcher, but he's gone. Inside, Rog 
rests back on the bed with a hint of a smile.

CEDARS: Annie & Josh go their separate ways. Reva smiles with 
satisfaction & pulls off her hair cover.

MATT'S ROOM: Matt picks up the phone, then glances at the clock & decides 
it's too late to call.

LEWIS HOUSE: Van pulls the covers over Peter & kisses him. She leaves & 
closes the door behind her. In her own room, Van stares at the phone, 
picks it up, then puts it down again.

In Peter's room, Dinah crawls out of the castle with the bag she packed 
for Peter. Tentatively, she pulls back the covers & picks up the sleeping 
child. He opens his eyes, but she pats his head & back & he nestles 
against her shoulder as the screen fades to black.

--Marni (marni@panix.com)



