From: Marni Centor <marni@panix.com>

            GUIDING LIGHT UPDATE: THURSDAY, APRIL 30, 1998

HIGHLIGHTS:

* Michelle returns from California & Rick visits her.
* Dinah plays it cool & Cassie has a hard time explaining to Hart.
* The clone wants to leave, but Josh wants her to stay.
* Buzz realizes the clone can't be Reva.
* Reva tries to call home from the hospital.

CENTER FOR INDEPENDENT LIVING: Michelle is back from California, 
wearing a stylish red suit and cool sunglasses. Dr. Dan is 
preoccupied with her chart & barely listens to her prattling. 
Finally, he confronts her with the fact that she's just had 
complicated surgery, and she didn't bother to tell her father or her 
brother. [She was probably afraid Rick would want to do the surgery 
himself!] She informs Dan that she's 19 and doesn't need their 
consent. She didn't want to get their hopes up. Dan has Michelle 
remove her glasses & sets about examining her eyes.

JESSUP FARMHOUSE: Dinah shows up, wanting to talk to Hart, but he 
tells her he's really sick. She says it's important, and can't wait. 
Hart guesses that it has something to do with Cassie. "Indirectly," 
says Dinah. She promises to do all the talking & not mention Cassie 
or "her troubled family life." She barges past Hart into the house.

LEWIS HOUSE: Josh begs the clone to stay. He says he can make things 
right, but she says he can't. He wants to explain what happened, but 
she already knows: He convinced himself she *was* Reva & sleeping 
with her would be just like doing it with Reva, but afterwards, he 
decided she just wasn't good enough. Now, she just wants him to leave 
her alone. Josh says he just wants to keep her from making a big 
mistake, but the clone knows he just wants to keep her from telling 
anyone what she is, & what he is for making her.

UNIDENTIFIED HOSPITAL: Reva tries again to call Springfield. She had 
tried earlier, but all the circuits were busy. While she waits for 
the call to go through, she wonders why she's so nervous.

LEWIS HOUSE: Josh says the clone already told the truth to Buzz. She 
says Buzz didn't believe her anyway, so Josh is off the hook. No one 
will ever know what he's done because no one will ever believe it. So 
he doesn't have to worry about her getting out of his life, since 
it's what he wants anyway. The phone rings. 

The clone goes to answer the phone while Reva waits at the other end 
of the line. Josh grabs the clone's hand & says he doesn't want her 
out of his life. He would miss her. The clone turns back to him & 
they let the phone ring. She asks Josh if he even knows what he 
wants. He says he wants to take care of her.

HOSPITAL: The answering machine picks up and Reva hangs up because 
she thinks leaving a message would be too much of a shock. She 
decides to try again later.

LEWIS HOUSE: The clone says Josh's expressions of his feelings of 
responsibility and wanting to have her around have less passion than 
someone talking about his dog. He'll have to do better if he really 
wants her to stick around.

FARMHOUSE: Hart sits on the couch & drinks some tea. His table is 
littered with used tissues. Dinah continues to stand & says she 
hasn't been honest & wants to come clean. Hart makes her promise 
she'll keep it short. Dinah admits that she made up the whole story 
about hiring Rob by accident, so Hart would hire him & Rob would have 
the opportunity to cause trouble. Hart realizes he was stupid not to 
have figured this out. Dinah sits beside him & says she feels better 
for getting this off her chest. Hart asks if Dinah really thought Rob 
& Cassie would get back together, leaving the coast clear for Dinah 
to get back with him. "Maybe," she replies. She says she's still in 
love with him. Hart says she just doesn't get it. Dinah realizes she 
made a big mistake out of hurt & anger. Rob was a bad idea & she's 
sorry she let it go on so long. Hart asks why she's telling him now. 
She says it was hard to keep up all the lies. He & Vanessa were 
right; the truth always comes out in the end.

LEWIS HOUSE: Josh has no luck getting through to the clone. He says 
he doesn't really care if people find out, because they can't hurt 
him any more than he's already hurt himself. He played god by 
creating another human being & he'll have to live with the 
consequences of that his whole life. "And I won't?" asks the clone 
rhetorically. Josh doesn't want the clone to be turned into a 
scientific subject & he doesn't want his family's lives to become a 
circus. The clone knows that no matter what Josh says, he doesn't 
really want her because she didn't cut it "in the old sackaroonie."

"You wanted your main squeeze back, but I'm not it. But you'll get 
over it & so will I." Josh says they can make it work. The clone 
intends to make it work on her own. She's going to start living a 
life that's not a lie, independent of Josh, who looks at her like 
he'd rather die than touch her. Josh denies this, but she can see it 
in his face all the time. Josh is sorry.

Cassie shows up & the clone yells at her for interrupting yet again. 
Cassie tells the clone to get over herself. Josh tries to get Cassie 
to calm down, but she says she's about to lose everything because of 
him. She tells him about Dinah breaking in to Michael's apartment, 
and adds that she covered for him by letting Dinah think that she & 
Josh are having an affair. The clone laughs.

BLIND SPOT: Michelle asks Dan what he thinks. He can't believe she 
underwent such major surgery without a second thought. She says the 
doctors explained everything & she weighed the risks. Rick shows up & 
says he came as soon as he heard she was back. He gives Michelle a 
big hug & asks her what's going on. She says the doctors in CA 
recommended a combination of drugs & a new kind of laser surgery. 
Rick wants the name of the doctor, so he can investigate the surgeon 
before Michelle goes through with the surgery. He looks around for 
something to write with & Michelle tells him there's a pen in his 
breast pocket. She takes off her glasses & says she already had the 
surgery, and she can see. She hugs Rick.

DINER: Buzz broods at the counter while Jesse works. Jesse thinks 
things have worked out really well with him being able to help out 
while Eleni is out of town on a catering job. He doesn't mind the 
extra cash. Buzz thinks back on what the clone told him about 
herself. He asks Jesse if he thinks it's possible to clone a human. 
Jesse says he read about it in the paper & it's amazing how quickly 
science fiction turns into reality. Buzz wonders, what if you lost 
someone you loved & you could bring that person back in a clone. 
Jesse says he'd be old & gray by then. What if you could speed up the 
aging process, suggests Buzz. Jesse thinks that would be pretty 
scary. He says a lot of people are against it because it's messing 
with nature. There should be laws against it. Buzz doesn't think laws 
will stop people who really want to do it.

LEWIS HOUSE: Cassie rants about Dinah & Rob finding their clothes in 
Michael's apartment. The only way to head her off from asking 
questions about the experiment was to let her think they were having 
an affair. "I am not an experiment," insists the experiment. She 
insists that she's a real person who knows love & hurt & hate. Josh 
tells Cassie to go to Hart & "establish control." Cassie says Josh 
can't keep a lid on this forever & she can't go on much longer. She 
thinks it's going to cost her the man she loves. But she promises not 
to tell Hart.

Josh returns to the clone, who is staring at Reva's picture on the 
mantle. The clone thinks Josh is scared, so he'll do anything to keep 
her in line. Josh denies this. The clone says she'll know if he's not 
honest with her, so he'd better think long & hard about what he's 
going to do. Josh looks skyward & asks Reva to help him. He has to 
let go of Reva #1 before he can accept Reva #2.

HOSPITAL: A doctor comes in & says they're ready to run the last of 
the tests. He asks if she was able to reach her family. She says not 
yet. After he gives her a clean bill of health, she plans to just 
jump on a plane & go to her family in person.

MICHELLE'S ROOM: Rick can't believe it. He hugs Michelle again. He 
wants to hear the whole story. Dan mentions a few side effects 
Michelle might have until she's finished healing. Rick hugs Michelle 
yet again. He can't wait to tell everyone. Dan leaves. Rick & 
Michelle sit on her bed & she tells him she didn't call because she 
was so scared that it wouldn't work. That something would go wrong. 
Even now, she's still scared it won't last. Rick says this is very 
normal. She dealt with really well. But she'll have to prepare 
herself for some ups & downs. He assures her that her family will 
always be there for her. Michelle wants to see her dad & Abby & 
Vanessa & the new baby & Dahlia. "Who else?" asks Rick. He says she's 
forgetting someone. "What about Jesse?"

FARMHOUSE: Cassie shows up & offers to make Hart some soup or tea. He 
declines. She says there's something she has to tell him. He mentions 
that Dinah stopped by. Cassie is not surprised; she's sure Dinah gave 
him an earful about her & Josh, but it's not true. Hart says Dinah 
told him about Rob, but didn't mention anything about Josh. Dinah 
enters with a bowl of hot soup for Hart. Cassie looks disgusted.

Dinah says she didn't hear Cassie come in. Cassie goes on the 
offensive, but Dinah doesn't fight back. Hart wants to hear about 
Josh. Cassie informs him that Dinah & Rob broke into Michael's 
apartment. Dinah says it's not true. Hart wants to hear Dinah's side. 
Dinah says she went over to Michael's to talk to him about a story. 
Cassie says Dinah went there to dig up dirt on her. She tells Hart 
that Dinah found a dress of hers & a shirt of Josh's at Michael's, so 
she jumped to all sorts of conclusions. "Given the way you're acting, 
I can't blame her," says Hart.

HOSPITAL: The doctor says all Reva's tests were negative, but she's 
suffering from a mild concussion. She needs to rest at least one more 
day before she can travel. Reva can't wait; she has to get home to 
her family. It's been weeks since her plane went down & they must all 
think she's dead.

LEWIS HOUSE: The clone comes downstairs with a suitcase & says she's 
leaving. Josh thought she had changed her mind. The clone wants to go 
somewhere where she can have her own identity. Josh says if she 
really feels like she has to do this, then she should. He asks how 
much cash she has. "None," she replies. He points out that she has no 
money, no ID, no job. She says she can get a job. Josh asks how, when 
she doesn't even have a birth certificate. She can't drive. How will 
she eat? Where will she stay? Who does she know? The clone isn't 
worried. She plans to find her own way, with a man who looks at her 
like she's a real person. She doesn't understand why Josh cares. 
He'll have to find a way to tell the kids their mother died, which is 
what he should have done in the first place & a big weight will be 
lifted off his shoulders.

Josh says that's not what he wants. The clone says he should be 
honest with himself. Josh says he's been honest with her from Day 1, 
and he really seems to believe it! When he saw her in Reva's wedding 
dress, his heart stopped. And when it started again, he could barely 
breathe. When he held her in his arms & they made love... "You were 
sorry," finishes the clone. Josh says that was afterwards, but it 
doesn't negate how he felt about her in that moment. "But I wasn't 
Reva," says the clone. Josh says she can't be, no matter how much she 
wants to. The clone says that despite Josh's baloney about her not 
having Reva's soul, it wasn't her soul he was interested in when they 
did the nasty. Josh feels bad for making the clone feel rejected. He 
was just trying to explain his true feelings to her.

The clone can't stand the constant comparisons to Reva. Josh is 
always shooting her down for not measuring up. Josh says she blows 
everything out of proportion & it's very annoying. The clone says all 
Josh's troubles will be over when she's gone. Josh says he'll worry 
himself sick over her, just like he did the last time she 
disappeared. Marah comes home, happy to see her parents. She says she 
has the best news.

DINER: Jesse tells Buzz that he still loves Michelle, and when he 
worked at the institute as Carlos, he got to know her a whole new 
way. Buzz sees that Jesse still has hopes of getting back with 
Michelle & asks when he's going to tell her that he is Carlos. 
Jesse's not sure; he needs to work up the nerve. Maybe when she gets 
back from California. Buzz says she could shut him out completely. 
Jesse doesn't think he could handle her breaking his heart again.

MICHELLE'S ROOM: Rick thinks Jesse deserves to know the truth. 
Michelle's not sure. Rick says she ran away from Jesse & he deserves 
a break. She thinks he's probably moved on already, but Rick says 
that's nonsense. He's always been in love with her. Michelle thinks 
it will be less painful for both of them if she leaves him alone. 
Rick thinks Michelle hasn't learned anything. Michelle says she's not 
going to jump back into Jesse's life & ruin it. Rick says that won't 
happen. Michelle says he's finally moved on with her life. Rick can't 
believe she doesn't want to share this miracle with the man she 
intended to marry. Michelle says she'll think about it. She says 
there's one person she really wants to see: Carlos. She tells Rick 
what a great friendship they had, how they could talk about anything 
really honestly. 

DINER: Jesse gets a phone call from Dr. Dan. He thinks Jesse should 
come to the institute to see Michelle. Jesse didn't know Michelle was 
back & asks what's going on. Dan says he should come see for himself. 
Jesse says he'll be right there. He rushes out of the diner, thinking 
there's something wrong with Michelle.

LEWIS HOUSE: The clone tries to get rid of Marah, explaining that she 
& Josh "were in the middle of something." Josh says they're having a 
pretty important talk. Marah apologizes. Josh asks what her surprise 
is. Marah says she got tickets for the Mother-Daughter Tea at the 
country club. She was afraid her mom wouldn't be back in time. She 
mentions that it's especially important because this year she's 
graduating junior high. And she's going to be really proud to go with 
the most beautiful mama in town. The clone is touched. Josh says they 
can talk about this later. The clone doesn't want to disappoint 
Marah. She wants to do this. It's why she came back. Marah hugs the 
clone & says she's going to be in high school next year. The clone 
says she's really proud of Marah. Marah's proud of her mom too. The 
clone says that means so much to her. Marah says they have a lot of 
planning to do. Josh kisses Marah & leaves them to their planning.

The clone follows him to the door & says this is all she really 
wanted. Josh knows that. She says it's going to be OK. Josh just 
wants her to be happy. He leaves.

DINER: Buzz remembers talking with the clone again. He remembers her 
hand. It didn't have a scar that should have been there. He kicks 
everyone out of the diner & closes it so he can leave. 

FARMHOUSE: Cassie rants at Dinah for making trouble. Dinah is very 
calm in return. Cassie accuses Dinah of keeping quiet about what she 
saw at Michael's in order to make Cassie look bad. Hart wants to 
forget about Dinah & focus on Cassie, who's making all the noise. She 
& Josh have been running around behind his back for weeks, and she 
won't give him an explanation. Even Reva accused them of the affair. 
"She's wrong," says Cassie. Hart asks point-blank if Cassie is having 
an affair with Josh.

HOSPITAL: Reva thanks the doctor for all his help & says she's 
checking herself out. She can't wait to see her family. She picks up 
the phone to try calling them one last time.

LEWIS HOUSE: Buzz shows up & the clone answers the door. He grabs her 
hand & looks at it. He's looking for the scar from when she burned 
herself at the diner. It's not there. He takes her face in his hands 
& asks, "Who are you?" The phone starts ringing & the clone says he 
has to forget about what she told him. Buzz can't forget. She pulls 
away from him to answer the phone.

HOSPITAL: Hearing a woman's voice on the other end, Reva asks who it 
is. "Reva Shayne," answers the clone. Reva looks at the phone in 
confusion as the screen fades to black.

--Marni (marni@panix.com)


