From: Marni Centor <marni@panix.com>

GUIDING LIGHT UPDATE -- THURSDAY, JANUARY 30, 1997

               NEVER CAN SAY GOODBYE

Directed by Brian Mertes

Highlights:
* Harley departs.
* Jenna says goodbye to Buzz.
* Annie drags Josh closer to home.
* Hart makes Jet face the truth about their future.
* Jean-Luc plays on Dinah's sympathies.

Evening in Springfield, USA...

FIREHOUSE: Buzz & Jenna return, with Buzz disappointed that the Dwights 
of Elm Park were not at home. Jenna is sure they'll be home some other 
time. Buzz thanks Jenna for taking the risk of helping him keep his 
promise to Reva. Jenna still doesn't know why Reva wanted the records. 
Buzz says just because a relationship is over, doesn't mean you stop 
caring about the other person. Jenna agrees that some feelings last a 
lifetime. 

LEWIS HOUSE: Hearing Josh on his way in, Annie hastily pours a glass of 
booze & raises it to her lips. Josh comes in, sees her, & knocks the 
glass out of her hand. "What are you doing?!" he yells. Annie fakes 
hysteria. She doesn't know what she's doing, what she was thinking, what 
got into her. Josh says it's all right. He's there & they're all fine. 
Annie doesn't know what she would do without him. Josh asks what got her 
so upset. Annie cries that she had a nightmare about what happened at 
the ball. People were talking behind her back & saying Josh really loved 
Reva & would be with her if it weren't for the baby. Of course she knows 
he loves her. Josh does nothing to reassure her of his feelings. Annie 
apologizes & says she's ashamed. She asks if he can forgive her.

FIREHOUSE: Buzz & Jenna walk towards each other & suddenly find 
themselves kissing & embracing. After a little bit, Jenna shakes her 
head & says they can't do this. Buzz forgot they were married to other 
people. Jenna apologizes for leading him on & says it won't happen 
again, since she & Jeffrey are leaving tomorrow. Buzz isn't exactly 
happy to hear this.

Jenna thinks Reva has really hurt Buzz. He doesn't want to talk about 
it. Jenna asks if Buzz is really going to live in the firehouse. Buzz 
says the place has nice memories. Jenna remembers one time... She 
realizes she's getting too close again & stops. Buzz says if there's 
something she's not telling him, now would be a good time.

Harley knocks & pokes her head in the door. She knocked downstairs, but 
no one heard her, so she came on up. [This implies that Buzz & Jenna are 
know in the upstairs portion of the firehouse, which would explain why 
nobody recognizes it, since we never saw the upstairs when Harley & 
Mallet lived there.] She hopes she's not interrupting anything.

LEWIS HOUSE: Josh apologizes for not reassuring Annie sooner. He should 
have told her earlier that Reva isn't a problem. Annie knows this & 
feels better now that Josh is there. Josh feels he hasn't really been 
there for Annie & promises to spend more time with her, working from 
home. Annie can't believe he would do that for her. Josh asks if Annie 
is still going to her meetings. Annie says yes. Josh thinks maybe she 
should double up, go to 2 a day. She'll have to leave her job with Alan. 
Annie doesn't want to do that. Josh says it's more important for Annie 
to take care of herself. 

Annie says the job doesn't make her upset; Reva does. She knows that 
people are talking behind her back, saying that Reva is just waiting for 
Annie to mess up so she can waltz on in. Josh says no one is saying 
that. Annie insists that Josh is wrong. She has eyes & ears; she knows 
what people are saying. She's surprised they're not taking bets on how 
long she & Josh will last. Josh thinks maybe she's blowing things out of 
proportion. Maybe it's mood swings from her pregnancy. Annie thinks 
maybe Josh is right. 

Josh says it's all his fault for leaving the liquor around the house. He 
can't understand why people give liquor for Xmas anyway. He gathers up 
all the holiday cheer & throws it out. Annie says he doesn't have to do 
that, but he insists. Annie thanks Josh for understanding. Not everyone 
realizes how difficult it is to fight the urges "every shingle waking 
minute of every shingle day." She's glad he does.

COMPANY: Hart takes a seat at the bar. Bridget sees him & lights up like 
a Xmas tree. She saunters over, dressed very spiffily for once in a chic 
black pantsuit & introduces herself as his waitress & asks how she can 
help him. [Hmm, have the people who renovated the sets also renovated 
Jet's wardrobe? We can only hope! I think she highlighted her hair too.] 
Hart says not even she can help him right now. She guesses that he's 
waiting for Dinah & offers to keep him company in the meantime. Jet 
thinks Dinah keeps Hart waiting a lot. "She always struck me as the kind 
of person who has trouble telling the big hand from the little hand." 
Hart is sure she'll be there any minute. Jet goes to get him some coffee 
& he tries calling Dinah. The line is busy.

Jet brings the coffee & says Hart might want to order now, because the 
kitchen will be closing in a couple of hours. Hart opts to wait for 
Dinah & asks about Peter. Jet says Nola's giving him a bath. Hart wants 
to say goodnight, but Jet says if Peter sees him now, he'll get excited 
& be up for hours. She suggests that they go sledding soon. Hart says 
he'll run it by Dinah. Jet hopes Dinah doesn't ruin it by being late 
again. Hart says Jet should lighten up, but Jet says Dinah makes it 
difficult. "It must jerk your chain to have to sit here & wait for her." 
Hart says that's between him & Dinah & he doesn't feel comfortable dis-
cussing it with Jet. Jet never thought she'd see the day when Hart would 
let anyone treat him this way. Hart tells her to knock it off. If Jet 
continues with this attitude, he doesn't know if they can stay friends.

PENTHOUSE: Dinah's on the phone, giving instructions to the WSPR station 
manager. She hangs up when she hears a knock at the door. It's Claudine 
& she's upset. Dinah doesn't have time because she's on her way to meet 
Hart. Claudine says Jean-Luc is in big trouble & needs Dinah's help. 
Dinah wants details, but Claudine says she's already said too much. She 
asks Dinah to go to him in his suite, but warns her to "be prepared for 
the worst." Dinah looks concerned & agrees to go. Claudine stays behind, 
saying if she shows up with Dinah, JL will know she broke his trust. 
Dinah sighs & asks Claudine to stay in the penthouse, and if Hart calls, 
tell him she'll meet him as soon as she can. After Dinah leaves, 
Claudine breaks into a huge grin.

JEAN-LUC'S SUITE: JL & Giorgio are planning something. JL makes Giorgio 
promise not to hit his nose. Giorgio is hesitant, but finally slugs JL 
in the face. 

FIREHOUSE: Harley comes downstairs after taking a nostalgic tour. Jenna 
asks about Mallet; Harley says he's great & she misses him like crazy. 
Buzz thinks he should get his sorry butt up to Springfield, but Harley 
says he's crazy busy. Good, says Buzz, you can stay a month & he won't 
miss you. He realizes Harley has come to say goodbye & can't believe 
she's leaving. "I've been here over a week," says Harley. "But you've 
been gone 3 years!" replies Buzz. Harley says she's on her way to the 
airport, but she promises to come back. "When I'm in a walker?" asks 
Buzz. Harley asks Jenna to help Buzz see reason, but she says she has no 
influence over him these days. "All you have to do is use the right 
words," retorts Buzz. 

Harley says she already said goodbye to Frank & Eleni, & also stopped at 
the cemetary to say goodbye to Nadine. Buzz would have gone for her, but 
Harley had to do it on her own. She tries to pretend that Nadine is just 
off on one of her trips, and reminisces about her mother's kooky ways, 
but realizes she has to accept that her mom is really gone. "I was 
always so mad at her. You don't think she died thinking I didn't love 
her, do you?" Buzz hugs her & assures her that Nadine knew Harley loved 
her. "She was so proud of you," he adds. 

Harley says she has to get going & hopes she still has a job when she 
gets back. Jenna asks if Harley is still with the police; Harley replies 
that she now works for an insurance company as an investigator. She 
mentions that they sent her up because of a string of jewel heists in 
the Midwest. They thought something might happen at the ball, but 
nothing did. "How awful that would have been," comments Jenna. Harley 
says when she first saw Jenna again, she thought she might have reverted 
to her old ways. Jenna laughs & Buzz says she's put her past behind her.

COMPANY: Jet clears the coffee & starts beating herself up for saying 
anything bad about Dinah. Hart says he should have cleared things up a 
long time ago. "I love Dinah." Jet gets the picture. Hart says Jet is 
Peter's mother & he cares for her very much & will always be there for 
her. "But that's where it's got to stop. Dinah is the woman for me. I 
can't give you what you want." Jet says she doesn't want anything from 
him. Hart says she should give up any ideas about them getting together. 
"Don't flatter yourself," says Jet defensively. 

Hart says he's not stupid. He wants to straighten things out so there 
are no misunder-standings in the future. "I'm not in love with you. I've 
never been in love with you. I'm not going to be in love with you." [The 
words sound harsh, but he said them like he was trying to be nice, but 
firm.] "But there is no reason why we can't stay good friends & have fun 
raising our son." Jet stands very still while he says all this.

Jet wants to make sure she has it all straight. "I had your baby, & now 
you want us to be friends, & I shouldn't feel at all hurt. Don't worry. 
I'll never bother you or your precious Dinah again."

JEAN-LUC'S SUITE: JL opens the door to Dinah's knock. He's wearing 
sunglasses & tells her to go away. Dinah pushes her way in anyway. JL 
asks if Claudine sent her, but Dinah says she was just in the 
neighborhood. He sits down with a sigh of pain & Dinah asks what's wrong 
with him. He takes off his glasses & she sees his black eye. She wants 
to call the doctor, but he says she should just go about her business. 

She insists on taking care of him. She brings him some ice for his eye & 
asks what happened. He reluctantly admits that he's been gambling again 
& lost all his money. She asks how much. "I owe the man from Marseilles 
$20,000." They told him if he didn't have it the next time they came to 
collect, they would kill him. He thinks they're bluffing, though. 
Probably they will only break an arm or a leg. But he can deal with it 
himself. "No you won't," responds Dinah.

She picks up the phone to call the cops. JL says that will make it 
worse. He'll be arrested for illegal gambling & everyone will hear about 
it. He owes money to others besides the guy from Marseilles. "Money 
comes, money goes, life goes on." Dinah says life isn't a game, but JL 
says it's all a roll of the dice, living on the edge. Dinah says if he 
can't pay & won't let her bail him out, then he has to go away.. She 
suggests South America. JL says his creditors have very long arms & will 
find him wherever he goes. He thinks he just has to accept his fate. 
Dinah offers to pay off his debt for him. "Absolutely not," says JL.

COMPANY: Jet starts to storm off, but Hart says they have to straighten 
things out. "You deserve to have someone love you," he adds. Jet turns 
on him, furious. "If you say one more patronizing thing to me, I will 
pick up this chair & hit you over the head with it!" Hart starts to 
protest, but Jet cuts him off. She's a big girl & gets it. "I'm out of 
your life for good." That's not what Hart wants. He wants her to be 
happy. "Well we all want what we can't have," she says with a slight 
smile, then heads out of the room past Nola, who turns & follows Jet.

Hart starts after them, but Claudine enters & calls to him. She says 
Dinah asked her to tell him she'd be by as soon as she saw JL. Hart's 
not happy to hear that Dinah is with JL & tells Claudine to spill the 
beans. She explains that JL was hurt & Dinah went to check up on him. 
Hart grabs his coat & leaves. Claudine follows cheerily.

LEWIS HOUSE: Annie doesn't want to be a burden to Josh. Josh says she 
looks pale & asks if she's OK. She says she's feeling queasy. Josh 
wonders if she isn't a little far along in her pregnancy to be feeling 
sick. She says everyone is different. Josh gives her his constipated 
look & she guesses that Reva just breezed through her pregnancies with 
Marah & Shayne. Josh says actually she had some trouble with Shayne, but 
that's not the point. The point is whether or not she's well. Annie 
insists she's fine, but Josh wants to call the doctor & get an 
appointment for today. "No!" yells Annie. 

Josh won't give in. He points out that she fainted last night, she's 
been exhausted, she hasn't put on any weight that he can see [he 
noticed!] & now her stomach is acting up. Annie says he's overreacting & 
she should know if she's OK, since she's a nurse. She says he's as bad 
as Ross the way he's worrying. The liquor is her problem, but now that 
he's there for her, she'll be fine. She thinks she cleared a big hurdle 
today. Josh is glad.

Josh figures he may as well set up the study for working at home. Annie 
says she'll stay downstairs & rest. He kisses her & goes upstairs. She 
immediately picks up the phone & calls the clinic, but it's closed & she 
gets the answering message. She decides there's only one thing to do & 
heads for the door.

FIREHOUSE: Buzz says Jenna has traded in diamonds for diapers; she's 
married with a cute little stepson. "Much cuter than old Jeffrey." 
Harley opens the door to leave. Buzz tells her to tell "that bum" to 
take good care of her. He takes great care of her, she says; Buzz should 
take care of himself. "It's been interesting seeing you again," she adds 
to Jenna, who responds in kind. Buzz sort of chases Harley out the door 
& they hug again. Harley pokes Buzz in the chest & tells him to take 
care of himself, then leaves.. 

Jenna knows how hard it is to say goodbye to someone close. "Hardest 
thing in the world," agrees Buzz, putting his arm around her. "Are you 
really going to leave?" he asks.

COMPANY: Nola wants Jet to talk to her; she can't stand to see Jet 
hurting. "Story of my life," says Jet. She just can't believe she 
thought... Nola hugs her. "He never loved me," says Jet sadly. Nola was 
right to tell her not to get her hopes up. "I wish I was wrong," says 
Nola. She knows what it feels like to love someone who doesn't love you 
back. It makes you feel hopeless & worthless, but it's not as bad as it 
feels. "Yes it is," says Jet tearily. She really thought she could make 
him love her, & Dylan's gone too. She's got nothing to look forward to. 
Nola says there's a lot to look forward to. Jet has Peter to raise & a 
whole wonderful future that she hasn't even dreamed of yet.

LEWIS HOUSE: Annie slips back into the house. She calls up to Josh to 
see if he wants any coffee or tea. No thanks, he calls down. She sits 
down on a bench near the door & pulls a pregnancy test out of a pharmacy 
bag. She flashes back on her 2nd insemination session with Fran. She 
just has to be pregnant this time.

JEAN-LUC'S SUITE: Dinah writes JL a check for $20K & tells him to pay 
off his debts. He doesn't want to take it. They argue & he finally 
agrees to take it for old time's sake. But she must promise to have 
dinner with him tomorrow. She declines. He presses the point & reminds 
her how he feels about her. She doesn't want to have this discussion 
now, but JL won't give up. He's been thinking about what a mess he made 
of his life; losing her was the biggest mistake of his life & he'd do 
anything to make things better between them. Dinah says it's impossible 
because of Hart. JL asks for at least a goodbye kiss. "OK," agrees 
Dinah. She gives him a short kiss.

Hart enters & says he heard JL was having a problem. "Hart, what are you 
doing here?" asks Dinah.

FIREHOUSE: Jenna says she has obligations; she's married. Her husband & 
their son need her. "I need you," says Buzz. "Don't," says Jenna. Buzz 
asks if she's really sure. "Um-hm," responds Jenna, nodding. She starts 
to leave & tells him to take care of himself. He holds onto her coat & 
says he'll miss her. She already misses him. She takes his hands & says 
goodbye. Buzz pulls his hands away & walks back inside, closing the door 
behind him. Jenna leans against the door tearfully.

Inside, Buzz opens up his take-out Chinese food, then sends it crashing 
to the floor, yelling "Damn it!" He grabs his coat & heads out the door.

LEWIS HOUSE: Annie wanders about anxiously, not knowing what to do with 
herself. A timer goes off & she prays that the test is blue. Finally, 
she turns over the stick & sees a blue dot staring up at her. "I'm 
pregnant! Yes!" she cheers quietly, as the screen fades to black.


--Marni (marni@panix.com)



