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From: minett@seismo.css.gov (Debbie Minett)
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To: lovinglist@uclink.berkeley.edu
Subject: LOV: Update Wednesday January 11, 1995
Status: R

I missed the first few minutes and deb graham was nice enough to
fill in (thanks deb!!!!).  So here's deb.....


Casey is looking at his ideas,and he calls them total garbage. He tells
himself he has to do this. Ally comes in. She asks how he's doing. Really
well, he lies. Registration at AE didn't go well, she didn't get any
classes that she wanted....well, maybe one. She had to take Tyler to
registration, since Grandma had a dentist appointment. Casey is upset that
they don't trust him to babysit for an hour. Ally gets up and suggests 
they take the tree down, it's so depressing when a tree is up after
the holidays. Casey apologizes for ruining their Christmas.

Eric tells Tess he can run the show from New York. Steffi comes in and
Tess notices the tension. Eric says he has to make a phone call. Tess
wants to know what is going on with her and Eric. Nothing, Steph says.

Angie finds Frankie and asks him to take her to lunch. He suggests that
she get her fiancee to take her to lunch. Where did the attitude come from?
Doesn't he want her to marry Charles? What difference would his opinion
make, Frankie says.

Meanwhile, Charles, Alex, Ava and Det. Graham are talking. Det. Graham
says that Alex left him no choice. Alex is temporarily suspended,
pending an internal affairs investigation, and maybe a Grand Jury
indictment. Ava yells at Det. Graham. Alex didn't do anything wrong.
Alex tries to get her to calm down.

(Debbie here now!)

Angie tells Frankie that yes his opinion makes a difference.
Frankie says Charles is a great guy and she's great, have a great
life together... Angie wants him to tell her what's going on.
It's just...  Frankie says this whole thing came out of no where..
maybe she could have talked to him...  Angie says he is right,
he's a big part of her life and nothing will ever change that.
She apologizes...  Frankie laughs at Angie asking if it was cool with
him. She says she was saying cool way before he was born.  They laugh.
She asks if he's happy for her or what... Yeah says Frankie.  Cool
says Angie..they laugh and hug.

Stephy tells Tess about her and Eric nearly sleeping together.
Tess guesses that she still has feelings for Coop.  Steph apologizes
for putting Tess on the spot. She's not sure what she feels.
She's going to throw herself back into work. She asks Tess for help.
She wants to know how you put your life back together and move forward.
Tess says you just do it.  Stephy says she'd rather be anyone right
now than Stephanie Brewster.

Casey hugs Ally as they take down the tree. He promises that next
year will be so much better. He apologizes.  He hates himself for
what he's done to them. Ally says everything will be ok with time.
Casey hugs her again and causes her to drop an ornament. Casey is upset...
The ornament had a pic of Ally, Casey and Tyler on it.
Ally tries to pick it up and cuts herself.  Casey is still upset
Ally keeps reassuring... we're gonna get through this she says.
Ally says we have to be strong.. Casey agrees. He says it won't happen
again... he gets ready to leave, he says he needs to walk and get
some air.  Ally stares at the broken ornament.

Charles and Ava are having coffee.... Alex  doesn't
want to talk about it. Ava and Charles make small talk.  Alex says
I shot a man who was unarmed and I knew it and I'm getting exactly
what I deserve. Charles says does this mean we're talking about it?
I'd like to get in my 2 cents.  Charles says you're looking at it in
slow motion. He says this guy was holding your wife for weeks and had
your son... Alex tells them to quit justifying things for him.
Alex says I acted in an unprofessional manner... I'm deserving of
no one's trust.

Stephy eats salad while meeting with Tess.  Angie enters and asks to talk
to Steph.  Angie says Frankie is too busy for lunch so she stopped
by for an informal checkup...  Stephy points out that she's eating
healthy salad.  They agree to have lunch next week.  Angie leaves
and Stephy pushes the top back on the salad.  She gets three 
chocolate bars out of her purse.

Casey goes by to see the psychiatrist.  He wants to know why Casey called.
Casey says my worst nightmare is coming true, I'm turning into my
father.  Casey says he's talking about taking his life and flushing
it down the toilet...now, do you think you can help me??

Alex says somewhere along the line I quit being a cop... Cops don't
cross a line and I crossed it.. Ava and Charles argue with him..
Alex says he wanted to kill Gilbert...that's the line he crossed and
when a cop crosses that line, he's no better than the animals he's
been sent to hunt down.  Charles says the line is fuzzy...  He
says guys like Gil don't even see a line. Charles says its understandable.
Alex has to give himself some time. Alex says time isn't gonna make
this go away.  He gets his gun and hands it and his badge to Charles.
He asks him to take them back to the station... Ava is upset.

Stephy purges and exits the bathroom stall.  She looks in the mirror
and fixes her lipstick.   

Casey says he doesn't know what's going on with him.  The doc  says that
Casey is under a lot of pressure and its understandable that he feels
overwhelmed.  Casey says he gets so down that he can hardly do 
anything.. is there something you can give me that can keep me more
level... the councellor asks if he used drugs before.. Casey denies it.
He says he has read recently about anti-depressants... The man says
it takes time to evaluate, he doesn't usually prescribe drugs so 
quickly. Casey says he hasn't been sleeping or eating... the down
periods are frequent. He looses interest in things he used to enjoy.
the councellor asks if there's anything he still enjoys.  Casey says
it depends on his mood.  the doc agrees to write a subscription, take
it in the morning. If Casey experiences any side effects, blurred
vision, lowered sex drive (missed some...) he should call right away.
Casey agrees.  The doc wants him to come in for more therapy. Casey
agrees to Friday and the doc tells him to schedule an appointment
on his way out.  Casey leaves without making an appointment.

Ally and Tyler are finishing taking down the ornaments.  She promises 
him that next Christmas is gonna be the best Christmas ever. They'll
all be together and they'll be so happy... She hugs Tyler and fade
out....


hope-there's-no-bell-tower-near-by-hanger....

Debbie and deb



